Do you ever ponder?

Do you ever ponder if how we see ourselves is how others see us? I sometimes wonder are we totally off? So much effort is made for others to like us and do we ever fully like ourselves or is it a constant game to be accepted and esteemed by others? I thought we were done with that in middle school and high school but at this moment I think maybe we never are but some say we get better with age. But I wonder does the criteria for acceptance just change with age, or maybe it never does? Do the people we love the most have us right? They know us the best, I guess that's why it hurts the most when how they see us is not how we saw ourselves. This post may make no sense to anyone but me tonight but I was feeling reflective and analytical so there it is I offer it up so you can ponder it how you like. I am thankful for God who is the only one that really does know me better than myself no matter what pretenses I attempt.