Waiting...

We've enjoyed a quiet laid back day today. A lot more indications this week that baby boy could come soon but guess he's just not quite ready yet. Its an interesting place to be just waiting for your life to completely change, going from a family of three to a family of four, having a son, turning the chapter in our family book to a new phase for us and all of the timing being mostly completely out of our control of just when all that is going to take place. I feel like I've been in early labor off and on for over a week now waiting for it to kick over to active labor but then things ease back. His official due date is just around the corner. I keep getting a few more things done each day that I honestly thought I wouldn't get to before baby came. You know the important stuff like a pedicure, best friend date, shaving my legs (I gave up a month ago the list items like cleaning our our closets and other crazy nesting spring cleaning I thought I wanted to do and then at this stage of pregnancy realized was just a little on the crazy side) Daily the list is growing shorter and my desire to have him in our arms is growing stronger.

 

I know these days are precious and I want to soak them up for what this time holds, the nervous anticipation, the sweet way Ryan is taking care of us, the undercurrent of excitement in our home, the curious and caring texts and phone calls from our family and friends to check our status. On the other side of that my body is growing more uncomfortable daily, the bouncing mind set wise from "is this it?' to "no not yet?" is a merry-go-round that is growing tiring, as well as the lurking bits of anxiety about how fast active labor might go with all this pre-labor activity and the many friends second birth stories in mind of how fast and furious it can all go down - all make this time an interesting mental game for sure.

 

I have a wonderful weekend in store no matter what it holds that will help me live more moments in the former rather than the latter. I spent Friday evening meeting and holding my best friend's sweet newborn little boy, just hours old and perfect in every way, our due dates just a week apart - another thing that makes this time so special and surreal in the best possible way. Tomorrow dear college friends are in town for the memorial marathon and their annual spring visit. An unofficial reunion as this spring marks 10 years ago we graduated college together - we've watched each other start careers, get married, have babies and do this whole adult thing. We were each others family during that treasured time between leaving home and starting adult life on our own and that sense of belongingness has never faded but grows stronger roots as the years pass. I always enjoy the gang being back together and if baby boy needs some more time then its a great way to spend some of the waiting time, if he decideds to come on out than it is very fitting they be some of the first to say hello. 

Alright baby boy, can't wait to meet you! We are ready when you are.